"....the night was amazing except for the fact that Bobby had broken up with me a few days before all of this went down. I wasn't expecting it at all because I thought I had finally found someone that I was compatible with, but I guess I was wrong" - Tila's Myspace Blog, January 1/08

Funny thing though, castings for A Shot at Love 2 had already begun at the end of NOVEMBER.  (http://www.shotatlovecasting.com/).  That's way before the reunion show in case you're wondering.

Either Tila was searching for a menage-a-trois, OR this show faked the whole thing so they could carry on to another season. 

I'm going with the latter.

There were also some rumors that the show made Tila eliminate Dominico because they didn't want to spend the money to fly her to Italy, and that the crew and set people would provoke the cast members to start drama with one another (such as the elimination fights). 

The real question is though, why would we want to watch it again?

xo

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See you there!

Your idols, your friend with the "perfect body", the hottest girl in school... ALL think this way at times.  And probably think this way even more than you do because they know that people are watching them and they have a figure to uphold. 

Celebrities pay big money to look the way they do.  Whether it be with plastic surgery, or personal trainers who work them super hard for 2-3 hours a day.  They work very hard to look the way they do, and to many "regular" (meaning non-famous) people, it's not possible to spend thousands of dollars on trainers, diets, or surgery. 

Sure, it IS possible to become a size 2 and look perfect all the time, but the sacrifice in my opinion isn't worth it.  Starving yourself to loose pounds, or going under the knife to make yourself into someone you're not is only a temporary fix, and causes so many other problems emotionally.  Think about it:  if you did become a size 2, will you really feel like you've accomplished something?  Who's to say after that you won't want to become a size 0, or change something else about yourself?  Not only that, who are you really doing it for?  Yourself, or the people who look at you so they view you differently?

When I was younger I was the skinniest girl in my class, maybe even in my whole school at that point.  I ate normally, I didn't stave myself at all, yet was called anorexic by other classmates.  I tried to GAIN weight, it just wouldn't work.  I was a size ONE how gross is that?  And I say gross because I did not want to be the tall skinny girl, and looked like a sack of bones.  Even at a size ONE I was unhappy.  A size that girls now would kill to be for some reason.  I went up to a size three, then finally a size five and was STILL called "too skinny".  (My grandpa even called me "skinny" as a nickname.) So I said screw it.  Womanhood came and I gained some more weight and I was happy.

My point here is that no matter what size you are, people will always judge, and skinny girls definitely do not get the praise they hope for.  Look at Victoria Beckham, she was SO skinny and being critized for it constantly.  She probably thought people would think she'd look better as a size zero and she'd be happier, but guess what, once she got there the comments still didn't stop.  

The public can be cruel, but you've got to be strong inside and realize that these people who put themselves through the pain of getting to look a certain way are not perfect, and you should not be expected to look like them at all.   I would much rather be happy about myself than have to worry about making other people happy with my own image.  It's MINE not anyone else's.

Obviously I still have my "fat days" and days I just feel gross like EVERYONE does, but in the end, I'm happy being 5'8" and 120lbs.  After all that work trying to gain it, why go backwards. 

I realized that if you're going to change yourself, do it for YOU not for anyone else. And if anyone ever calls me fat after I worked to gain weight, I might have to slap them.

xo Danakiller

Msg us at radio@killscene.com (msn) or killscenemotel (aim) and we'll choose some of you. You will have to be available 8pmPST/11pmEST tonight for about an hour, and create a stickam(.com) account.

-Dana

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There might be something you want, or a gift you want to purchase for someone for xmas perhaps?

More stuff should be coming shortly!

xo danakiller

This year we decided to go as the (Killscene) Kill Team!  We're going in hot tomboy-ish outfits.... combat boots, booty shorts/skirts, bloody tanks, and dirt on our faces... with guns strapped to our legs!  Fake ones of course!  If you're still looking for something to be,why not be a Kill Team hottie too!?  Take pics and we'll post em!

We're heading out to a club for a little while with a bunch of friends, then bringing the party back home where we'll broadcast it live on Stickam... www.stickam.com/profile/killscene. So be sure to tune in!  We're in Eastern Standard Time so for most of you in the US, that's 3 hours ahead.

What are you guys all doing this weekend!?

xo Killscene

You know what ELSE is annoying? (I'm going to vent some more while I'm here.)  How we're "Buzzmakers" but don't appear on the front page links anymore.  What's up with that? This site plays favourites way too much.  I thought it was a community site not a personal website for *ahem* certain members. You should all write in or leave a comment about how we should be on the front page again!

OH and I thought if I saw Tila Tequila in a random place one more time I was going to lose it, but apparently she's now got some type of partnership going on here and I'm regretfully still sane.  I'm sorry, but sometimes "role models" should be examined, especially when they appear on a website that is full of underage kids.  She's in(ternet)famous for taking off her clothes and pretty much being a slut (excuse my language but it's true). 

I love Buzznet, but sometimes............

xo